If life has been a long struggle for you, not understanding this world, the culture, politics, religions, faiths and belief systems of this world have been a problem, then you are like me.
Systems have been corrupt and destructive, it has been a long journey to first innerstand the ways of this world, dirty politics, no good intentions, not much goodness, where good seems to suffer and horrible things and people thrive.
If you’re like me, a sensitive soul, trying to innerstand this world and also to live in its violent systems, then, it would have taken you a long time. It’s taken me all my life.
I have met some shady characters, passing as good. All they want is to fleece you of your goodness, they look good and if you’re trusting like I am, then you have been fleeced probably all your life. But, it’s ok, we now know what this world is made of. Lots of bad people, trying to take advantage, take, own, possess, violate, persecute, victimise others. They want to make a fast buck, own, possess others’ energy! Beware!!!
Then, there are the good people, who are honest, kind, givers, healers, selfless beings, healing, rebuilding, creating, speaking good words, acting with the highest integrity, high moral compass, who never sold their souls to the corrupt people and systems.
We are the warriors, the misfits, the rebels, the one who are always fighting for justice, humanity, righteousness, goodness. We are changing the world with our force, we are the powers of the past, present and future. We are here to make waves, to change the system from within, we are here to stay.
We failed big, we died many times, our souls drowned many times, we dissociated with these systems all our lives, we have been depressed, stressed, sick and dis-eased, because everything around us has been rotten, it was tough to trust, as we are such trusting beings, we trusted the wrong people, we trusted evil kinds. We fell hard.
As light warriors, we have been here for a long time, we have lost for that long, but not anymore, we have risen and we are here to remain risen. Evil masters came in many disguises to defeat us, they came as friends, masked themselves as perhaps lovers, benefactors, friends, colleagues, bosses, mentors, politicians, gurus, spiritual guides, teachers, students or someone close to us.
We’re the light ones, we may not have known everyone’s intentions right from the start, but now we do, we have unveiled everyone, we know everyone’s intentions, we innerstand relationships, people, humans, race, religion, politics, politicians, educational systems, financial systems, gurus, we innerstand what’s good, what’s not. We have been unmasking everyone.
We have kept what’s good for us and released what’s not good for us, we are here to stay, no one can defeat us, we have met evil in person and we have defeated them, they have no power over us and we have mastered their systems.
It’s now time to rise and many breakthroughs are here now. It’s our time, know that not everything and everyone has good intentions, protect yourself, your work, your abundance, fruits of your labour, trust but with discernment, not everyone is your friend, not everyone is trustworthy.
Have faith, right now all is well and will be so. You have surpassed the tough times and you have reached the other side, the safe passage is here, from now on, your life is going to be a masterpiece.
Take good care friend of light. Keep your legacy of light, keep doing what you’re doing, keep fighting the good fight, with high morals, integrity, never sell your soul stay true to you and what’s right, this is your time. You have arrived and the universe is cheering you on.
Your wings’ flutter has reached the deepest recess of this universe and all the divine is cheering you on! YAYYY! we have waited for your success, for a looooong time. Sigh with relief now. It’s YOUR TIME!
What happens when others deny their responsibility, play the “innocent game” or make you responsible for their own failure?
It’s a great burden to bear, right? There’s a lot of people who want to do nothing and pass their own burdens onto others. Have you met them at all? Someone who gives orders, pretends to be superior, authority figures who deny responsibility, play the dumb game, the victim game, lazy or just an abuser who loves to pass on their debt/pain onto others.
It’s not your responsibility to carry other people’s responsibilities/pain or burden, if you were made responsible for anyone who isn’t your responsibility, then there is the likelihood that you have never learnt boundaries and the knowledge of what is your responsibility and what’s not yours.
Realising what your responsibilities are – is the first step towards having very strong boundaries. Seeing the truth can be difficult, especially, if you believe that certain things are your responsibility when it’s not, it’s also difficult if you were made responsible for too much or too little.
For example, the person who takes and takes, has made the giver responsible for their wealth and energy. The taker then believes that the giver must give and the giver out of their goodness – believes the same.
This becomes a pattern of abuse, over time, the taker expects this giving relationship to keep giving, if the giver realises or stops giving, the taker becomes very abusive. The taker feels a sense of entitlement from the giver, as they (the taker) feel the giver belongs to them or has to sacrifice themself because that was the agreement.
When the giver stops giving or becomes aware of boundaries, the taker can become very aggressive or emotionally manipulative – i.e, “I love you, I will do anything for you, you are my love, you are the only one who can help me, save me, you’re my best friend, you’re the one who rescues me, I need you, I have to be with you, I am better with you and so on …” This is a sign of a one-sided, toxic relationship, because in a healthy friendship, relationship, there is giving and receiving. Both parties contribute equally.
When one gives, the other just takes (I don’t mean receives, but taking implies force) this is an abusive relationship, partnership, friendship and it must be ended. It is your responsibility to know what your responsibilities are and what aren’t yours.
A taker never gives and doesn’t want to give, a taker is in debt usually, has a negative bank account, they take because they have nothing and need to take from others to live. It’s not a choice, it’s a necessity for these entities.
They never learnt to take responsibility, they played the victim, blamed others for their problem and misery and continue to do so. They never say, “well it was partly my fault, because I put myself through this situation …” or if it was a childhood trauma, they will not take responsibility for their pain and suffering in their adulthood and continue to blame others and never do something about it. They still blame others for their own problems.
If traumas occurred in childhood, of course I am not suggesting it’s our fault, but what I am saying is dealing with the trauma, pain and suffering in our adulthood, is our responsibility, it is not someone else’s responsibility to keep filling in our bank of energy, prosperity and happiness. Others will probably do that for a little time, but long term, we have to take responsibility for our health, happiness and well-being.
So, if others keep on transferring their pain onto us, expecting us to sort it out for them, to keep giving to them for them to keep filling their own vessel with nectar, energy and goodness whilst the giver shrivels away, this is abuse and narcissism.
Knowing what is our responsibility and what isn’t, is an art. As long as we look after our own happiness, keep on healing ourself, question our motives for doing things if there is personal gain, if it comes from a clean heart and we give to others with balance (now that we have learnt to take responsibility with giving to others), then we can’t go wrong.
Taking our own responsibilities are essential for a good balanced life. Admitting our fault, seeing the truth of a situation, removing takers from our life, honouring the self with self love and self worth, because when we see those who are in a habit of taking with force and never contributing to our happiness, then, it’s time to let them go, return their own banks of responsibilities to them as it wasn’t our burden to carry in the first place.
Make them responsible for it, stop carrying their pain, horror and abuse as this is toxic and slavery.
Life has been hard, you’ve had a lot of tough lessons, which seemed unending, you have wanted the lessons to end, it felt like it was an endless loop of lessons, that you were being punished for something which wasn’t even your fault. If you have felt this world was mad, crazy, that it could not be possible that you were in this monstrous world, well, you were right AND you were wrong at the same time. You didn’t want anything to do with this mad world, this world seemed alien to you, you couldn’t believe that you actually are here, living in a 3D world, with all these crazy people, things and politics.
Well, there was a purpose to your invisibility. You chose to be invisible, to be in the background, to never be noticed. You were learning about this world. You have been here a long time ( reincarnation) and this is the life that you take all your powers back.
So you did take all your powers back. You defeated monstrosities, monstrous people who passed as friends or relations, in the background, you did a lot of “lightwork”. You worked hard at releasing all the evil that plagued you, your life and your ancestors. You were the lighthouse of the family, you purged lifetimes of evil and horror through your crystalline self, as a power generator, you emitted strong super powerful energies to release the pain and suffering of your entire ancestral bloodline. You also healed a lot of pain in your star line.
Being in the background, invisible, you had a purpose. Your purpose was to emit so much light, that you alone could move a vast number of people that you come into contact with.
In your invisible stages of life, living in the background served you as this was the time to innerstand, to gather information, to watch, to gather knowlegde and wisdom, to purge the old, return what’s not yours, heal yourself, your family and your ancestors.
You have been doing ALL of that in the background, on top of the pain and suffering, you have been doing your creative heART stuff, you have created your won beautiful world of peace, love and beauty. You are now ready to fully come forward and reveal yourself to the world, as you’re ready to help the world with your wisdom and knowledge now.
Are you going to accept the call? Come forward and shine your light on this world?
Wow! what an end it has been! I have been waiting for so many things to end. Sooo many, can’t even count how many things, people, situations, to go awayyyy!
It hasn’t been easy, some people would NOT leave, would not go away, even though they weren’t wanted. Yikes! I don’t get that, but hey, this is the kind of world we live in, some people live to make others miserable, it’s their life purpose, their mission, they were born to do that shite! Some people do not take rejection well.
However, one persona non grata is finally GONE, with their horror and baggage – Out with their trash, of all kinds. Justice is being done and I feel elated. Yooohooo. I have learnt that evil exist and will do anything to ruin us, if they aren’t part of our life. Divine justice babay! phewwww, it’s like I have been waiting lifetimes for this.
On that note, it feels like freedom is here, with my beautiful life, wonderful love, magical everything, it feels like my life is beginning all over. With ALL the right people, it felt like almost a big purge took place in my life. It was the greatest purge and amazingly, life is sooo beautiful when we stand up for ourself, kick azz of those whom need to be kicked, remove those whom need to be removed, give ourself the best of the best, even if that means we have to go to war to take back what’s ours.
Power to the good hearts.
Your time is here. I rejoice in my own victory, I command same for the light ones.
The present – Yes, the PRESENT! the gift, the precious gift we have been given. We’re told that we MUST live in the present, but how do we do that? All my life I have tried to live in the present, I have read lots of books, writings, listened to gurus, teachers, wise men, women, I have climbed mountains, travelled far and wide, looking for all the answers.
The answers to life. How to be happy? how do I change my life to a happier life? does happiness exist? how do I live in the present? They say that living in the present is the only way to be in the here and now and to be happy!
So, I tried. I set myself a task, to live in the now, to be happy. I was so desperate to be happy, to be in the here and now, I would do anything, so here is how I went about being happy and living in the here and now.
I must warn you that this didn’t happen overnight, it took me a few decades to carry out this experiment, but at the same time, I was desperate to find happiness for myself. Living in the now was a mission for me as I wanted to find happiness. I couldn’t be happy, no matter what! I tried everything, that I knew, read or heard about.
These are a few things I tried:
Vision boards, writing about my desires and wishes, making a list of things I wanted, law of attraction, reading the secret, listening to wise teachers, following gurus, reading wisdom-filled books, visualisation, meditation, contemplation, praying, NLP, EFT, healing myself, clearing my subconscious mind, healing my akashic records, balancing karma and so many other things.
I have tried a lot of things, however, I was no closer to being happy and manifesting my life in the present, in the here and now. No matter what I did, it felt like the most part of me lived in the past, couldn’t let go of the past, couldn’t make peace with what happened in the past. What was it that was pulling me back into my past?
I am a curious being, I do not allow myself to leave anything undealt, unresolved. I now know this is a good thing, although this can also be the worst, obsessive side of me that needs to succeed at all cost.
So, I had to learn about myself, no matter what I did, I couldn’t move on, I couldn’t find peace, couldn’t live in the present and be happy. On the surface of it, I had everything, a good job, a fulfilling career, wealth, my art to keep me happy, a good husband, a long and successful marriage, good friends, a good family, supportive and loving siblings, I travel a lot, I sell my art, success in writing and so much more, so, where was this happiness?
Then I asked myself, is anyone happy in this world? What is happiness? is happiness a state of mind as they all say? is happiness impossible? Are we all living a life of desperation, void and envy of others? Is our happiness dependent onto our own parents, society, Hollywood movies, social media, buying more things, fashion, acquiring more, wealth, big cars, big house, our upbringing, being loved by our parents, a good career, status, class, education, friendship, relationship status, success, health, wisdom and everything else we may think will make us happy?
The quest began? what is happiness? how do I live in the present? because it is here that I will find happiness. But how can I find happiness if all I think about is my past, how it hurt me, how my past led me to this bad place, how could this person do this, how could this person do that? why did this happen? How do I make it right? How do I seek revenge, balance, take back what was mine, taken with force? Everything a victim would think about, when feeling sorry for herself.
Lesson 1 – Things happen for you, NOT to you!
This took a long time for me to see. When we see that things happen to make us better, stronger, to empower us, we cease to be a victim. I want to save you years in finding this for yourself, but if you aren’t ready to hear this, then it is better you go and do your own walk, your own challenges to learn this lesson. Once you see that everything happens for a good reason, for your benefit, even the worst challenge, you heal fast. The situation heals fast.
Say someone has done you wrong, it may be in this life, it may even be something from past lives, this happens when you have immense anger, resentment, hatred towards someone whom you have barely interacted with, but there is a sense of disproportionate loss towards this entity. You are experiencing a past life trauma and it seems very real.
There a many lessons in a challenge like this, so you may be learning to stand up for yourself, to say no, to take back your life and control, to remove someone from your life, to reject a pattern, people and situations aligned with an addictive, chronically rotten pattern, seek revenge ( to teach the other person a lesson if they keep on abusing you), to call back your own self, to respect yourself, to love yourself, to honour your own self, to have strong boundaries, to honour life, to be strong, to speak out, to speak up, to have no fear of those who seem stronger than you, they aren’t, and so on …
Lesson 2 – Karma doesn’t balance, if we do not take action. The pain grows and grows and grows. Whilst you may be waiting for someone else to take the lead, it is you who must change YOUR life, not someone else. If someone who is unbalanced, disrespectful and controlling is in your life, it means YOU have allowed them in, you have allowed them to control you, you have never spoken up about their abuse, or not found the courage to face them, tell them off, remove them from your life, say no, say that’s enough, fight back and defeat them. It’s YOUR job to do what it takes to free yourself, no one else’s. There can be no happiness with an abusive person in your life.
Lesson 3 – go back to the past, live there, understand it, study it to heal it.
This will take a long time, often, it is our past lives, our ancestor’s lives, their energy, their vibe, the collective consciousness, other people’s projections, our own subconsciousness, karmic records (past, present and future actions), akashic records (records/memories of our own lives, lived as a sum of of all lives lived on this planet and others as well). It’s all a mezze of a mess, all of it spills over, our subconscious lives as if our past is happening right now. Everything mixed together, brings our lives into complete chaos, pain and suffering.
Understanding that our life is not only made of our life, but of all others, our ancestors, our society, religion, cultures, politics and a sum of our ancestor’s success, karmic actions, failures, their energies add to the bank balance of the current account. This account has always existed, there is either a positive or a negative balance in our account. If it’s positive, we will have a good balanced life, if it’s negative, then we need to act to balance that bank account, not only bring it to zero, but to add a good positive amount to it, so we can heal, prosper and lead a beautiful life. Once this is done, then we can live a happy life in the present. When we clear Karma, akasha, the ancestors’ records, we can then become peaceful and loving.
As an example – If one of our ancestors was always unhappy, broken, suffered loss, resented others, we are likely to carry this frequency in our DNA. Nothing goes away, until healed, cleared and dealt with. If someone you met was a perpetrator, abuser, there is a likelihood that their ancestors were. They are born in a similar soul group. We all are, if we were enslaved, we are likely to be born into our own soul group of those ancestors who have been enslaved, worked hard labour, paid very little, who have a destructive habit of losing everything, their own life, health, losing money, being poor, dysfunctional, live in hatred, chronic anger, abuse, self abuse, self harm, live in shame, disgust, humiliation – as slavery brings all of these to the person. When this is left unhealed, it carries over from generation to generation, into infinity, until someone breaks the pattern, heals the past, balances karma and releases the whole family from all that pain and suffering.
So, this is the power of our own family history, we must know the whole story of our ancestors, to be able to heal it, release others, ourselves from all pain and suffering, so the past doesn’t repeat itself, doesn’t happen again, so your powers come back to you, but also to your ancestors, all the spirits heal and then only, we can all be happy.
Lesson 4 – healing the past, heals the present and future.
There can be no present, without the past. There can be no future, without the present and the past. Time isn’t linear, it’s all happening all at once, it’s a point, the zero point, everything happens all at once. Your past is your present is your future. Deal with life as a point of target, the beginning is the end is the continuous point. Time is an illusion, what is happening now, is your past, present an future, so in reality, there is no past, no present, no future, you’re REALLY living in the now, but you don’t know it.
This is the point of living, once you realise you are already living in the NOW, you win. What your brain is leading you to is not the past, it’s the now point, the energy that needs healing. The chaos is an intertwining of energies and a mixture of a large number of vibrations, frequency and energies that are trying to help you innerstand that all of it is a sum of you! you are them, they are you, all is ONE!
So, wait a minute, how do I heal the past, if there is no past? time is an illusion, once you understand that, everything collapses. You live in the zero point, your past lives aren’t your past lives, they are happening now. They need to be released, they need to be healed, they need to be closed as a timeline, so you aren’t confused with so much happening all at once, we are limitless beings, many timelines are open all at once, once we close timelines, be in full control of our life, our infinite nature, that things are always happening, if we don’t become in control, then someone else or something else will take control of OUR own space, energy, frequency and vibration and claim it as their own.
Lesson 5 – our life is a SUM of all.
The infinite nature of us is due to the fact that life is seeking to manifest itself through everyone we meet, what they are throwing back at us, is what we have accepted for a long time. If we are the perfect victim, we’ll meet the perfect evil perpetrator. They are just what we need so we can free ourselves to be the beautiful soul that we crave.
The abuser will teach us how to free ourselves from their abuse. It’s all necessary for life to be free. If we do nothing, they will carry on abusing us, if we act, they will fight back, as they do not want to lose a quiet giver, who never complains. They will fight you, to keep you enslaved, then it all depends on you, do you want to free yourself, or do you want to stay in their evil slavery? All is up to you, dependent on you, your now is asking you to make the change for you. The bad person comes to teach you freedom, love, peace, balance, abundance, respect, life and brings you boundaries, strength, courage, goodness, wealth, your powers in infinite proportions.
Lessons learnt! living in the present in happiness. I am grateful for the lessons.
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